I’ll save myself the heartache.
I wish I had a cure, but I don’t.
I still have time to think about it.
It’s not supposed to be this hard.
But it is.
Maybe I’m being selfish.
But I don’t want to risk my heart being squeezed at the end of the day with the realisation that this is not how it was like back then;
With the realisation that if things didn’t change, I wouldn’t have to contemplate over such a small issue.
But which comes first, satisfying others, or satisfying myself?
Then again, I don’t know if saving myself the heartache would satisfy me.
And I don’t know if taking that risk of feeling that sinking feeling at the end of the day would too.
Maybe both won’t.
But then what will?